I'm a Jerk! Proof 1

This is not so much a display of humility (when is humility ever really announced? It may be displayed, but woe to the man who calls attention to his humility.), as it is more of a public confession and hope for repentence. Maybe I should do this every Sunday morning, or sometime within my sabbath-day-of-the-week.

I was just thinking yesterday, while walking from a seminar to a basketball game, how it would be to train up a young man in dealing with beggars. How to say 'no' (outside of the ocassionally discerned 'yes,' often in the form of food) while treating the requester with dignity, as a human being in need of being treated with dignity, with emotions and intellect and a physical body. In general, I could use stand to be more polite and generous in that area, but my volunteer work has taught me alot about the plight of the homeless, the drug-addled, the constantly inebriated, etc.

So, why, later, walking in the cold rain at 11 o'clock at night, when I pass by a man with a gas canister and two young girls in tow, knowing that the closest gas station is half a mile in any direction, and he asks for some change to help him get gas, do I flat-out refuse him? If ever there was a 'yes' moment, this was it.

I'm a jerk. Jesus, save me.